Talking about yourself.
As a small business owner and a freelancer, I have to talk about myself a lot. All these social media tools – Facebook, Twitter, this blog – rely on you to leverage who you are, what you know, what you’re interested in – to attract attention, attract interest and ultimately to attract clients. It’s awfully tiresome. 
This week I’ve given three aura readings, produced my spring newsletter, put together a design proposal for a freelance client’s re-branding, did some project work for a software development company that I work for on occasion, did some public policy work with a local chamber of commerce, attended a couple of “twit-ups”, watched a lot of Frasier and spent almost every waking minute talking about – myself. The things I’m into. The things I like.
I bring this up because when you spend this much time talking about yourself, you have to really know who that is. That’s a pretty big deal – especially when you’re working in a realm of spirituality that few people allow themselves to truly access. It takes guts, and it takes a certain amount of fearlessness. I don’t necessarily claim to have this part down; I’m still learning. For instance, just yesterday I was getting out of the shower on my way to a client to give a reading, and I started to freak out a little bit. What the hell was I doing? Who the hell am I to be claiming to be giving psychic readings? What if she laughed at me? What if I screwed it all up? Yep, even psychics deal with the energy of imminent failure.
Living your truth is the most powerful thing you can do to live the life you want. A lot of times, my clients don’t feel like they know what their truth is. That’s just other energy getting in the way. Last night, when I was doubting myself and my gift, I chose to walk through it and went to the reading. I set up the way I usually do, and when it was time to do the reading, I just went for it. It’s my truth. I’ve spent very disciplined years getting in touch with my truth, and I had to “just do it”. You might say – in the face of all that doubt, even though I couldn’t *feel* my truth, I knew it was there somewhere. In a way, I faked it.
The woman I read was amazing. A gifted healer herself, she had an amazing capacity to work from her “knowingness” (meaning, her intuition or ability to know) but where her energy was stuck was in bringing this “knowing” into the vision she had for her life. I saw this as represented by a gray film separating the 7th layer (ability to know your truth) and the 6th layer (ability to have vision for your life) of her aura. Where she was working, as a spirit, was on bringing the infinite and limitless knowledge that she had accumulated over many lives into present time, into this lifetime. We looked a little deeper at this gray film, and within it there was a picture of very personal grief that was keeping some of her life force trapped in a loop. By clearing the grief, and healing her pain in this picture, she will now be able to bring some of that amazing, capable knowing down into her physical life and affect the changes she’s looking to make. The client was moved to tears, as was I.
Often times, as a psychic, I am engaged in the energy of a reading hours or days before it actually occurs. This woman’s struggle – that of bringing her knowing into the vision for her life, was similar to the energy I was handling just before the reading while I was in the shower. It’s such a gift to see these struggles, this invalidation as simply energy; it can be shifted, re-created and forgiven. It can be moved out of the way.
The reading was a great success, and of course afterwards I thought it silly that I had ever doubted myself or the gift. However, it did highlight to me how fortunate I am to truly know myself (and let me tell you – 5 years ago, I had NO idea who I was!) and to be able to share my gift in a way that helps people better understand themselves.
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