Into the dark forest

Every life is lived in between dichotomies. Night and day, happy and sad, clear and unclear. You could say that in some ways, everything about our lives are defined by these frameworks – which themselves are made up of opposing/contrasting, yet oddly similar ideas or concepts. Your very day is a dichotomy, because it begins and it ends – each of those being opposite on the spectrum, and everything that happens being a part of the progression to get from one to the other.

A lifetime, from where I work psychically, is like that too. If you want to know where you’re headed in life, all you need to do is look at where you came from. In most people, you’re headed for the very opposite, or other end of the dichotomy. If you came from a family that was all rules and regulations – you are most likely searching or questing for freedom. If you came from a place that was empty, or devoid of feeling or emotion – chances are you’re looking to experience depth of emotion that mirrors that.

But what happens when the place you came from was great. kindhearted. forgiving. loving, even. Yet you still choose to leave?

The spiritual path, or the path of the seeker (to use an archetype) is one where no matter where you came from, the very thing that was presented as the good, right and well thing – a life, a job, a marriage – anything, really, is just not enough. There’s a calling to find something more. Something different.

This can be very confusing to the people you choose to leave behind. They can be angry, fearful and hurt. In a way, it can seem like you’re rejecting them. But that’s not always the case. Sometimes, it’s just this itch that needs to be scratched. To walk alone into the dark forest.

In the dark forest your strength is tested. Your resolve is beaten down. You experience pain, grief, sadness and loss. But you discover yourself. Your true strength. The commitment you have to yourself. The depth of human experience that enlivens you in moments of grief. These are the things that create the path of the seeker. These are exactly the things the seeker is looking for.

What’s on the other side sometimes doesn’t really matter. Because like all things on the spiritual path, it’s not about the destination – it’s about the journey. It’s about becoming familiar with parts of yourself forgotten. It’s about tuning into your unique energy. It’s about the depth of human experience. What you are really seeking – is yourself.

It’s taken me years to find the resolve to never stop searching until I find what I’m looking for. To not feel guilt or shame at the path that it takes to get there – both light and dark. The thing I seek – each day – is me. My own spirit, my own unique life-force.

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If you’re brave enough to be looking for more in your life, let me help you find your own energy thru a reading, a healing or a one-on-one energy coaching session. Find out more at www.billypacholski.com.

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