Are You Hiding From Yourself?
As children and young adults, most people spend a considerable amount of their energy trying to fit in, to not stand out, to be “like everyone else.” There are, of course, exceptions to this, but for the most part our families groom us to fit in to a group or society, to not attract attention, to not stand out. This can be very healthy, as it keeps us safe, keeps us protected, and allows up to grow.
However, as we move into adulthood, there can be this nagging feeling that who we are, in truth, is somehow unexpressed – or hidden away. But so often, we’re hiding behind self-image pictures that aren’t really ours. “Well, I’m not that kind of person” or “I’ve never been good at those kinds of things” – these are ways that we keep ourselves limited, and sometimes stuck. Sometimes we hide behind the self-image pictures of who our parents thought we were or told us we could be, because it’s safer than having to show our parents that they were wrong!
You might be hiding behind many other different things. You might be hiding behind work or your job, claiming that you’re “too busy” to do what you want to be happy, or to be in the kinds of relationships that validate who you really are. You might be hiding in a relationship that “keeps you safe” but really keeps you miserable and dependent. You might be hiding behind your friends and family, encouraging everyone else into the spotlight and all the while wondering, “when is it going to be my turn?” You might even be hiding behind cynicism – critiquing everyone else’s choices and creativity as a way of healing your own fear of creating the life you want for yourself. When you judge others you’re not only judging them, but you’re judging yourself as well.
The funny thing is, what we tend to be hiding from in all these situations is not really something external but we are hiding from ourselves. We might be afraid that if we were to really just be ourselves – warts and all – but to really shine in our own unique way, running on our own life-force and strength – that we would be invalidated, kicked out of the group, isolated, and lonely. We might be afraid that if we start to operate from our truth, that we’ll have to end relationships and agreements we’ve made with others that are no longer current or applicable to who we really are. All this can be really challenging when it’s happening – it can feel like your world is coming apart at the seams. But the rewards that come can feel like magic!
It can be extremely gratifying to break out of this fear energy and begin to access who you truly are in spirit in this new, exciting way. Permission to do that can only come from within. So I ask, what – or who – are you hiding behind? Where can you seize opportunity to really step out of the chorus line and become the star of your own show? What are the obstacles that are keeping you hidden – fear? invalidation? doubt? Where is the original pain that caused you to hide in the first place? Have you healed that?
If you truly love yourself and this world, you’ll allow yourself to shine in your life, allowing your unique gifts, energy, and spirit to be seen. Sometimes, to grow, change and become who we truly want to be – who we know in our hearts that we already are – all it takes is to stop hiding from ourselves in this way!
For the month of June, I’m offering a special hour long clairvoyant aura reading – “Who Am I?” – a way to reconnect to lost information about who you really are in spirit. Do you feel disconnected from your truth? Do you have a sneaking suspicion that there is something more to you than meets the eye? Want to find out more?
Check out this special reading! $100 for the hour.
billy@billypacholski.com or (415) 513-0160
