Billy Pacholski

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not seek the answers, which you would not be able to live. The point is, to live everything. Live the questions. You will gradually, without noticing it, live some distant day into your answers.” — Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke

Most people spend a great deal of their lives in a state of punishment.This energy can be so present that we no longer even notice it – it feels “normal” or “natural”. The most surprising thing about this is that most of the time, the punishment comes from within ourselves.

Punishment is a terrible energy to be generating within yourself. You can be punishing yourself by not being allowed to have the kind of job you’d long to have. Or not being in the kinds of relationships you would flourish in. You can be punishing yourself by remaining in situations or conditions that are very unhealthy to you “because you made your bed, now you need to lie in it.” You can be running your whole life feeling out of place, like you don’t belong, like you’re not worth anything. This can be the “story” or the energy that informs everything you experience.

Not surprisingly, when you’re punishing yourself like this, it gives other people permission and encouragement to punish you, too – on an unconscious level. We’re all psychic, and we are all sensing subtle energies all the time. When you meet someone who is generating a energy of self-punishment, it’s a little like a subconscious cue inviting you to punish them too. You might go right along with and support their punishment. Or, if you’re a healer, you can get stuck trying to make them feel better about themselves – which allows them to remain in punishment mode (ie – a victim), relying on you to constantly and continually heal them.

You might be carrying punishment from your childhood, from failures of the past, or even past lives in the form of karma. Punishment that people around are in that you heal for them, “here – let me help you with that” – is a way of making someone feel better or protecting them. But where does that energy go? Chances are you’re taking it on.

None of this is in present time, and does not deserve or require that you hold on to it, or remain punished. The best way to learn is through mistakes – so even things you’ve done in the past that could be seen, in the worst light, as “in error” – are really your greatest assets going forward.

If there’s an area of your life where you’re in lack, chances are that there’s some form of punishment going on – and it might not be punishment coming from other people, but generated within your own space. You might be blaming people, things, the world for your punishment and pain – but the genesis is almost always within you. You can clear these energies, you can heal yourself, and you can take steps forward towards having more!

Where and how are you stuck in a cycle of punishing yourself? It might be hard to see at first. A clairvoyant reading can look at these energies, at the root causes behind them, and help you to take a step towards self-healing and having more in your life.

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This special four week class is a journey meant to jumpstart the change you’re looking to create in your life. This class will give you tools, techniques, and will look at concepts that are core to manifesting abundance energy in whatever way is attractive to you. Just in time for St. Patricks Day, this 4 week journey will focus on the energy of luck. Where to find it, how to harness it, and how to have more of it in your life! Why do some people seem so lucky, and others don’t?

This is a psychic energy class. Everyone is “psychic”, and has the ability to sense or perceive energy. it’s part of being human. Our bodies are built to react to energy – and what a true psychic does is not strange, or weird, or “super-human.” To be psychic is to be aware of energy on a fundamental level; your own, and everyone else’s. In that awareness, you can learn to examine, shift and re-create energy that enables you to live the life that you want for yourself.

Most of the class will take place in guided meditation, using imagery and symbolism to create change in the energy of your body, your space, and the world around you. Come get a little taste of the magic that you can create for yourself every day!

Here’s what one student from my 2009 Abundance Class had to say about the experience:
“I enjoyed this class so much. I had listened to CDs, read books, but never really “gone anywhere” with my personal practice. It’s hard to put the experience of the meditations into words…but Billy takes you on the most vivid, colorful, and palpable tour of your inner being. In a sense, it is an overwhelming amount of emotion and revelation, but that’s the point, right!?”
Rebecca (Attracting Abundance, September 2009)

If you participated in the September 2009 class, there will be new and additional material covered in this class. It’ll also be a great refresher and bump if you’re ready to take another step! A special rate is offered to returning students.

Class is on Tuesday nights from 8pm-10pm, March 9, 16, 23 & 30th, at The Awakening Center, 3523 N. Lincoln Ave, Chicago, IL 60657. You do not need to present at all classes to participate, and special payment arrangements are possible. Email me at billy@billypacholski.com for more information or with questions.

Spots are limited and I anticipate this class filling up quickly. Please take advantage of the early bird special and sign-up today!

Often times, clients look to me as if I have all the answers – I certainly don’t make that claim. Each person is responsible for their own answers and truth. What I can do is sense and perceive energy, which is very different than having all the answers! One of the great things about working with energy and being psychic is that I make space to grow, learn, and change in my life too!

In my own life, I continue to get stuck all the time. One of the biggest lessons I find myself learning over and over (and over) is to “go with the flow.” I habitually try to control the outcome of my manifestations, and definitely get stuck creating “perfect pictures” – i.e. – if I just get this one thing – then everything will be perfect.

I came to San Francisco in October and fell in love with the city. The bay area is magical – especially for this boy from the midwest suburbs. The natural beauty, the energy of the ocean, the laid-back attitude of Californians was like an exotic dream. Not to mention the food – don’t get me started on the food!
But since I’ve been here, I’ve struggled a bit to ground, and to make being here “real.” I’ve been looking for additional work (those San Fran rents are high, folks!) and for an appropriate living situation. All the while, I’ve been spending time staying with friends and a really great guy I’ve been dating.

But you know what? It’s just not working. There’s no flow of energy, no serendipity, and I’ve been suspicious of that. What’s the problem? What needs to be cleared? Where am I handling energy that isn’t my own? I’ve been trying hard to figure it all out, to clear what needs to be cleared, and to get what I thought I wanted – a job, an apartment, and a life picture that “made sense.”

What I forgot was that when things are right, they just work out. Simply, without effort, and definitely without “hard work.” Oh, sure, I could try harder, I could force myself to take a job I wasn’t excited about, I could finagle some kind of apartment rental. But none of it would feel right. It wouldn’t be me.

Myself? I’m a seeker. I’m always on the move these days; its a part of myself I’m really enjoying exploring. I spent years feeling pinned down and trapped. Through intensive energy work, meditation, and clearing I recently found a great amount of freedom and now there is always a new opportunity on the horizon that is evocative, exciting and full of new adventure – when I’m in my flow.

So today, I blew up my perfect picture of being in San Francisco. Of how it’s all supposed to work. What it’s supposed to look like. And you know what? I got to say hello to the opportunity to travel to Seattle in February, back to Chicago in March, and New Orleans in April. Sounds kinda fun, right?

Now, a life like that might sound horrible to you, and this constant moving and traveling is definitely not for everyone! But what I’m trying to say is – if you’re trying to fit into a perfect picture of how things are “supposed” to work, and it’s not your truth, it will eat away at you. You’ll feel invalidated, not good enough. In part, because you aren’t. You’re trying to succeed at a game that simply isn’t yours.

Now, there’s a price to pay for making these kinds of choices. I might have to say goodbye to some really awesome people. But I’m sure I’ll see them again, and besides, relationships these days are mobile, elastic, and transferrable. And San Francisco will always be here, right? I’m excited that I was able to change my perspective and see an abundance being offered to me in other areas of my life.

Play your own game. The one you choose for yourself. Run your own energy, life-force, truth. Make choices and decisions based on what will make you happy – not anyone else. The rest will fall into place – that’s what happens when you’re in the flow.

There are people in our society that we immediately identify as healers. Doctors and nurses heal our bodies. Lawyers heal our legal troubles. Teachers heal our minds. Once you start to open up your awareness to how much healing really goes on in day to day life, you begin to notice healing happening around you all the time.

You might be a healer , and you might not be aware of how much of your energy is invested in healing or taking care of other people or their problems. You might be the spiritual healer of your workplace, your family, your friends or colleagues. People might see you as the one who “keeps everything together”, or “smooths everything over.” It’s a powerful role to have in any group, but like anything, it has a price.

If too much of your energy is invested in taking care of everyone else, you might be unconsciously taking on everyone else energy. How often have you heard someone say, “I feel so much better when I hang out with you!” Maybe you’re the only one at work that is capable of keeping the peace – constantly in the middle of childish squabbles and relationship problems. Meanwhile, you feel tired, or stretched thin. There’s often never any energy left at the end of the day to deal with your own life – so you sweep it under the rug.

Chances are, there are things in your life that you’re healing all the time. And you may not be getting validated for being in this important role in your relationships. But it doesn’t have to be that way. Once you start becoming more aware where your energy, or life-force, is being directed, you can start to see how its affecting others, and also, where you might be leaking energy like a garden hose! You might be healing a whole bunch of situations and relationships that really aren’t that important to you any more. They might be in past time. You might be ready to let some things fail – so that you can create something new in their place.

If you’re in a bunch of situations or relationships that aren’t fulfilling or validating to you, and you’re waiting for other people to change – you might be waiting for a really long time. Chances are, they’ve got you exactly where they want you – your healing energy is extremely valuable! Why should they begin to heal themselves – you’re doing a perfectly good job for them!

Perhaps it’s time for you to call some of your energy back to yourself – so you can create new things in present time that resonate with who you are in spirit. The hardest obstacle you’ll encounter when beginning to call back your own energy is guilt. Guilt that you should be obligated to fix everyone and everything else. “But if I stop healing them, they will suffer” is a common energy we handle – and it can keep you (and them) stuck. It simply isn’t true. All healing is self-healing, and each and every person is capable of healing themselves and creating the life they want to lead with just their own energy. It’s really that simple.

Sometimes we keep over-healing because people tell us how great we are, how much they love our energy. That can be very validating, but can also create an inequity – if they continually rely on your energy to “feel better”, you can be stuck needing to generate enough energy for more people than just yourself! And your energy always runs better in your own space. You can be stuck in a network of friends, colleagues and relatives that “rely” on you for so much – there might not be much left for you in your own life!

You can learn to heal without giving it all away. You can learn to create a healing space for others to heal themselves, without them needing your energy to do so. You can be validated as the healer that you are by learning how to heal yourself first. You can become responsible for your own energy alone instead of everyone else’s, and you’ll let go of feeling “in control” of situations and relationships that you’re really not in control of anyways. It makes it easier to know your own life-force more clearly, to find your own answers, and to make choices that resonate with you in spirit. It doesn’t mean that you don’t have compassion. It simply means that you require the people around you to find their own answers and to heal themselves too.

The funny thing is – that’s when the magic happens.

By healing yourself, you actually become the healing for others. And you won’t need to do anything – simply by being yourself, healing your own space and energy, you’ll get to have more in your life, and so will everyone else.

Others will follow your lead. They’ll start growing and changing too, just because you have. So who heals the healer? The healer themselves!

If you want to heal the world – heal yourself first.